Wow, i didn't use comp for 1 day.
I'm rotting @ home again.
Is like ahma they all went for camp,
& me, th No Cca Girl, is rotting @ home.
Nehneh. ): Nevermind.
Tday, my purpose of posting is t tell something t someone.
To Tht Guy :
Hais, you & me are gans now.
I'm your meimei, you're my korkorh.
Hais, you know i don't treat you as my korkorh?
I treat you as tht guy tht i love.
Tht guy tht i've always loved.
Hais, my feelings for you hasn't fade yet.
Th pain, th hurt, have not disappear yet.
Whenever i talk or sms you, i'll remember our past.
& My heart will start t feel th pain again.
I felt like crying, i felt like dying. I still wna call you baby.
But i can't. It's very painful you know?!
You've stabbed my heart painfully. You've dyed it with blood.
Tht feeling is just so terrible. Hais.
It's really painful. I wna cry out loud.
I wish you were by my side now.
I wish you'd never leave me.
I wish i'd never known you before.
I want you back by my side. Hais.
But i know, tht's just so not possible.
I guess you're hers now. No, you're hers actually.
I was stupid t have you as my boyf in th first place.
Last time, when i cried, you were there, lending me your shoulder.
When i was cold, you would give me your cardigan, when you yourself is cold.
When i'm still shivering, you would pull me t your side & hug me.
When i'm sad, you'll ask me, " Baby, whys? " in those tone.
Tht voice, tht cute voice tht i'll never forget.
I'll say it myself whenever i think of it.
& My heart'll be pain again. My tears will start t role down my cheeks.
& When i'm far apart from you, you'll always squeeze yourself beside me.
When i always ask you t meet me, altho it's far, you still came.
When it was getting late, you will pei me home. When it was so far.
You said i was th first tht you sent home.
Whenever i'm angry with you, you'll give me a kiss. A sweet kiss.
You said i was th first t know your whole gang.
You said you will love me forever.
You said you'll never leave me alone.
But now? Hais.
I finally know tht all these were lies.
Lies tht i'll never forget.
Lies tht causes me t be so hurt now.
Lies tht made me so painful.
Lies tht i hate alot, ALOT.
Remember tht time, when i can't sleep?
& We talked on phone till 6 plus in th morning?
We had a long sweet talk. I miss those days. Hais.
I'll never get you back.
All i cans do now is t hide behind everyone, looking at you, seeing if you're happy nots.
Seeing you happy, it makes me feels happy too.
你开心,我也开心.
I love t be loved by you. I hate t be hurt by you. Hais.
Maybe i made a real big mistake loving you.
But i'd never regretted before. B'cos i love you more dhen life. Hais.
& After we broked, whys do you still bother t call me?
Whys?! I heard your voice.
You sound like you were crying.
You know it hurts my heart nots?!
You cried, when i've never hear you cry before.
Tht indescribable pain. It hurts me thoroughly.
& Tht voice, it keeps appearing in my mind like an echo.
I seriously don't know, when cans i put you down.
Idk when i cans forget you. Maybe sooner or later?
But i know, it wouldn't be so fast.
I hope you could see this, but i don't think so. Hais.
Everytime i see your name, f/s, number, th places we've gone t, your image ;
I'll start t remember everything.
Those memories. Hais. Just when cans i stop thinking of you?!
Whys do you've t step into my life in th first place?!
I feel like screaming at you at times.
I wna say i hate you alot alot.
But i couldn't bring myself t, b'cos i love you.
Hais, i cut & bled for you.
But idk if you could feel my hurt anots.
I guess nots bahs. Hais.
B'cos your heart, your mind, your everything have no longer contain my anything.
Now, you've left all these hurts for me t suffer ALONE.
You've left me, all by myself in misery. Hais.
Now you're gone, i'm so lost without you.
很想知道你现在的消息,不清楚自己是怎样的心情。
我的爱对你永远也不会变。我等你,我一定会等你的。
Hais, my heart will never be tht heart ;
Without those painful misery, scars, memories, hurts & your image anymore.
Th hurt, th hurt tht nobody understands.
So, if you think you understands how i'm feeling now ;
I think you'd better shut up.
Tho i don't think anyone will.
I've cut my hand. But i don't wna post it ups.
Hais. I don't think there's a need t.
So yea, i'll not MIA.
I'll still stay strong.
Reply tags later, b'cos i'm blogging later.
Takecares & Goodbye. :D
The Smiles Of Yesterdays Have Vanished. ):
很想知道你现在的消息,不清楚自己是怎样的心情。):
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