I Hate Heartbreaking News .

Current Mood Crying , Sad , Moodless .
Current Music It's Not Goodbye .


Loss of words to say .
I'm sorry for not being a good girlfriend .
I don't know what to do anymore .
It's hurting me , I'm lost .
My heart's really pain . I don't wish to let go .
All I do now is to cry , I think I'm just so naive .
Just use a knife & stab me alive .
Let me die in your hands .
Written with tears , Iloveyou .

Today went to sku , recieved a heartbreaking msg .
It rained , & I just walked throughout the rain .
( Now I'm feeling sick , sorethroat , feverish . )
Didn't have the mood the whole day .
Cried a lil secretly during some parts of lessons .
Didn't even want to talk in class .
So today I was quiet for almost half the day .
During recess actually didn't want to eat at all .
But in the end still bought somethings to eat .
Forced myself to eat everything .
After recess , during chemistry I was fine alreadys .
Didn't thought of that msg .
Then MelissaAhma they all went for the Badmintion thing .
Leaving me alone among the clique in sku .
Because I don't want to go , & can't be bothered .
After that , I sat alone behind , scribbled on my foolscap .



I really don't know what went wrong , hais .
After that , I rushed down to Pasir ris .
Went to meet DreadreaPrettysister , SipeiJiejie they all .
Saw baby there too . I kinda dao-ed him ...
After that DreadreaPrettysister asked me to talk to him .
I didn't have the courage , so I ignore her advice .
Then SipeiJiejie asked me to call AloySongsu here .
I called him , together with baby .
Was weird at first . Then baby called me .
& Started to play with me .
I admitted I felt very relieved at that moment .
Then after that I walked together with baby .
He kept on playing with me .
Went to the nearby staircase there to slack .
I lied down on baby , & nearly fall asleep :x .
After that baby disiao-ed me , idiot .
Then awhile later , all of us went home .
Except for me , because I going to Tampines One to meet my mum .
Hugged DreadreaPrettysister & SipeiJiejie .
I never go hug my baby ): .
But when I was about to tap inside , baby asked me to call him :) .
His actions were super cute !
Inside the mrt was calling baby , but his phone was off-ed .
Went to shop for phones with mummy & daddy .
I'm going to buy W959 or G9oo soon , still deciding .

& Sorry AikikoMother , I didn't turn up for the meeting .
Because was kinda rush for me , & I need to meet my parents .
Sorry mother , will meet you soon oks , luv !

Gosh , I'm thinking of the msg again .
It kept appearing in my head over & over again .
What am I supposed to do ?
Someone please tell me what to do , will you ... ?
It's killing me , it's torturing me .

Sorry , I've no mood now .
Will update tomorrow oks .

& 467366 ,
Baby it's hurting me alot .
Those sweetest memories .
I promise I'll hold on to you .