The Feeling Is Just So ... Terrible .

Current Mood Shag .
Current Music Truely Deeply Madly .

Yawns* Just came home from Bedok hq .
The Cmb called me like few days ago , asking me to go back today at 11am .
So , my daddy was so kiasu . We reached there at 1o45am .
Expected , the Cmb was late . Yes , LATE .
Luckily got another officer helped him out lol .
They're only giving me a warning ^^v .
& FUCK , now I got counselling , LANJIAO .
The Cmb say if I skip any counselling , I'll need to go back to them twice a week -.- .
Or worse to worse they'll refer me to Girls' Home .
I FUCK THEM UPSIDEDOWN AH .

After Bedok hq , daddy & me went to withdraw money $.$ .
Then he brought me to Tampines Mall .
& YES , I FINALLY BOUGHT MY NEW PHONE !
Nbcb , I wanted G900 . Know what ? The market had stop selling it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gosh , made my mood turn OFF . So neverminds , wanted W705 , the newest one .
BUT ! The font is SO BIGGGGGGG that it made it so UGLY .
& Nice one daddy , you told me not to bullshit with you , damn you !
Because I was spouting nonsenses infront of him hahaha !
So decided to buy W595 , hehehe ^^v . I wanted pink , BUT OUT OF STOCK , AW .
So I took the white one . Horrr .

After buying the phone , we went to buy lunch to eat .
The chicken rice seriously is making me puke .
Although it's cheap , but the chicken rice stall machiam selling just RICE .
The chicken only got 3 pathetic pieces !
& Two fucking green slices of cucumber .
I think I can cook better then them lah please !
Horrr . How can they do this to me ): .

YES , NOW I'M DESPO FOR SONGS , THEMES , PHOTOS !
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA .
NOW I CAN UPLOAD PHOTOS EVERYDAY WITHOUT FAIL .
NICE ONE NICE ONE NICE ONE .
HEY I SEEM SO HYPER RIGHTS ?
But .................................................

Yesterday night , Gordon called me ...
He asked me to accompany him to talk ...
So as you expected , I did ...
& He was calling me a Bitch , while I call him a Bastard .
After that , he asked me if I would want to hear him cry ...
I told him no I don't want to .
& He started to ask me some fuckedup questions ...
Like eg .
" You still got feelings for me not ? "
" Do you still miss me ? "
" I know you won't kup my phone . "
All these questions really turned my mood UPSIDEDOWN .
After , DreadreaPrettysister called me to call her .
So of course I did lah ! Gordon called in too , for conference .
Suddenly me & Drea was talking about somethings .
& We heard Gordon crying ...
He said he want to kup first ... At the moment my heart really ached .
I myself alreadys having some problems over him ,
& now I'm supposed to cheer him up , because he's sad over other girls .
DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT FEELING ?
That feeling is so suckedup , so fuckedup .
Yes , you can ask me not to worry , but please , how can I not ?
You know I still love you & you're talking some craps .
I swear , I'm trying to let go . But whenever I'm about to do so , YOU STEPPED INTO MY LIFE .
& I'm soft-hearted , my heart just melted like that ...
When , when will I ever let go ? I'm wondering ...
I'm sick & tired of everything .

I love my bloodbond sisters ,
they're always there for me , whenever I need them .
Drea , Clara , Kitty , Lynn & Yuxuan .
Forever sisters , I love you .
& Not forgetting you boy ,
I still do love you .
Just that I need time to let go ...

#.3, MIA .
DayanLYJ , I'll wait for you .
23th day since you're gone .
We promised we'll wait for you .
Gordon's ,
16th days since we're no longer together )': .