Sometimes, you gotta understand.

blogger's back to normal again sia.
can upload my photos already, like finally la please.
( but then cb, i press the upload pictures that icon nothing pop out -.- )
okays, i've got so many things to blog about.
but as for photospams.. we've played and worried too much, so forgotten to take :x
other day alrights! there's always other time ma :)

anyway, me will continue about what happened yesterday and today alrights.
yesterday slept until 4 to 5 plus in the afternoon.
then planned with drea this and that. prepared and left house @ 8 plus?
wanted to watch Murderer, but need IC, fuck.
moreover we're late for the movie, so in the end went to sengkang rooftop.
had h2h talk with alicia, sarah, yuxuan, soda and drea.
after that, we cabbed to era. 18 bucks sia, the driver damn stingy.
don't want to give us discount, so selfish can ):
reached era, went to find our brothers. all were acting so damn weird can.
and we feel era damn weird, got this weird weird feeling..
plus something happened to us @ there before, zzz.
drea was feeling kinda unwell after smoking, so sent her off for cab.
she went home around 3 plus? then after she go we kana screen.
screened finish alrdy all brothers like okays alrdy.

xahboy, guowei, hanwei, xboy, xiaoken, big nose, ming and the rest damn gl can.
after that, baby sat there, his shag face.. i see alrdy heartpain sia.. ):
wanted to talk to him but can't, because of somethings ba..
then later on, xkel stupid boy came, jae they all also.
things happened and stuffs, i hear alrdy stunned sia.
two sided siol, bth you. what actually are you thinking? idk.
then later on asked brothers if they were okays, and xboy said of course we're, haha.
after on, went to play comp. played until awhile and sat the comp there stoned.



baby went off without even telling me. @ that night we didn't even talk to each other.
so i cried @ the comp there. alicia kept asking me not to cry, cute la.
after that i kept on pestering xahboy brother to hurry up finish his dota.

because i wanna cab home asap. reached home around 9 plus ba.
bathed, talked in my cosy room with yuxuan and alicia.
had lots of h2h talks with them. and i was so damn noisy, like what they said la ):
because i keep on repeating, " I miss Vance ): "
after that, we all fell asleep @ around 3 plus? then we slept till 7 plus.
when i woked up, i find that my house had no one except for my brother, maid and us.
then those bitches bathed and prepared.
and guess who msged me? Vance chew teck teck! :P
was so damn happy can! and baby, i wanna share the burden with you too..
after that, went downstairs to puff for awhile. and xab brother came.
wanted to talk to him, yet he cabbed down to siglap centre instead.
they going to settle some stuffs with that whoever lol.

sigh, me very stressed up now.
shag and tired. sistership? what's does it represents?
someone tell me will you?


what's me without you?
what's fel without drea?
sist, don't go on hiatus will you?
i know things are making you so sick and tired of everything.
but what are we sisters for? didn't i tell you before, i'm your pillar of support.
and you, are mine too. without you, what am i supposed to do?
i'm lost in nowhere. sist, reply my text. don't go offline.
i know you're crying behind your comp, or phone, or even to sleep.
who knows you better than me? sist, how long have we been close sisters sia.
you understand those things i've told you not.
words from you might be harsh, but i know you didn't mean it.
just because you don't know what you're doing, feeling so lost.
you need time to find your own way back, yes i know.
me and yuxuan, will mia till your back from your hiatus too i guess.
i love you atyl.
and i'm beginning to miss everything about you, sigh ):


vance chew teck teck! haha :P
i've learnt this from that retarded bitch soda.
me and baby getting better and better right baby? :P
(baby just kupped the phone with me ): )
baby damn sweet la, called me just to hear my voice :P
and remember what i told you alrights?
i'm here to share your burden with you, i won't leave you alone.
me love you la baby! :D

alrights, me wanna go sleep alrdy.
eyelids closing soon. moreover there's school tmr.
settling everything now, so damn funny!
okays la, me off from cyberworld!
promise to post tmr or what okays :)

18th, never ever leave me.
we've learnt our lessons didn't we?
me love you baby! :')

Hurting inside, hoping things would be fine.

hi readers, yes i'm here to blog.
me didn't go school today.
i've 5 days of mc, remember? haha.



yesterday went to meet yuxuan at my house void deck.
went to puffed, slacked. had really h2h talk session with her.
around 8 in the night, drea cabbed down.
talked and slacked around too.
walked to whitesands, met xahboy for awhile.
he kp here kp there then went home.
so we three girls went to buy drinks and went to my house.
yes, yuxuan and drea those two sluts came my house to ton.
studied. we actually did study okays.
i did chem, yuxuan did maths, drea did geog, we had fun studying tgther.
studied till around 12 plus in the night, we became so damn hungry.
so i went to ask my mum to order mac for us, at least she agreed.
we three ordered macspicy, after eating we h2h talk all the way till morning.
around 6 plus, bth all toh. but i woked up at 8 plus?
because i need to go to the doctor for checkup of my throat.
and the doctor said that my throat's getting bttr :)
but he also say that this doesn't mean i can eat alot of fried things.
i gave him the look, lol.
after checkup, daddy went to buy some breakfast.
went home, we three girls ate our food and talked again.
seriously, we really talked alot.
and all our thinkings are the same too :)
oh yahs, worse still, we were talking about ghostly stuffs and haunted places.
after awhile, around 3 plus, drea cabbed home first.
then she was texting with me till she fell asleep.
yet me and yuxuan was waiting for her. yuxuan fell asleep too, i was preparing.
who knows when i called drea she didn't pick up her phone.
so called xkiddo brother to ask, he said yahs she might be sleeping.
so i was like omg wtfs man. but then, it's okays lah.
since she's tired, and moreover i don't feel like going out.
just wanna meet my baby only :')
i miss you. i miss you. i miss you so badly.

sigh, i find that this world, is full with weird kinda people.
and also, many hypocrites? many liers? many two sided people?
seriously, it's true..
me. don't. understand. this. world. seriously.


My dearest Vance chew teck hao, 18th's.
baby, remember 180609? that's the day we became couples.
from strangers to friends, friends to gans, gans to lovers.
i still remember, few months ago,
when i still can't forget G, you're always there for me.
no matter what, you'll talk to me on the phone, or text me to make me happy.
you never ever stopped contacting me, neither have i.
after a month or so, we started to became even closer than before.
so close till.. i secretly fell in love with you.
and till then, you too, have the same feelings as me.
yet, we didn't tell each other, or even give hints.
until that day, i knew that you stead with E, i was shocked..
stunned till, i actually teared too..
and drea, told me to confess to you, and let you know that i actually liked you.
so yahs, i did. and surprisingly, you said you liked me too, but didn't dare to tell me either.
and since then, you became so stress, thinking about how to settle about the relationship.
but yet, we still didn't gave up. we perservered to be tgther..
in the end, yes we did, we really did.
it seemed like a dream to me, i teared in joy.
after that, we became a loving couple, and everyone said that we were so cute tgther.. :')
i remembered, the way you first held my hands..
i remembered, the way you first hugged me..
i remembered, the way you first kissed my lips..
i remembered, the smell that lingers on you..
i remembered, the smile you have on your face..
i remembered, the way you hug me to sleep..
i remembered, the way you coax me when i'm angry or sad..
i remembered, the way you said you love me..
i remembered, the way you said you miss me..
baby, do you even remember all those things..?
the days we were at era together.
the days we went to east coast park to catch bears.
the days we spent at your house.
the days we slack at my house void decks.
the days we talk on the phone till late at night.
do you remember those days..?
whenever you held my hands, i feel so secure.
whenever you hugged me, i feel so warmth and loved.
whenever you kissed me, how i wish time would stop.
you know your every little things, actions means alot to me?
i don't know if you know, but this is truely how i feel.
ever since you mia from me, i mia too.
i locked myself at home, or after school straight away go home.
or totally no mood for anything, even for my sisters.
i cried, and cried everyday.
how badly i wanted to contact you, yet i can't.
how badly i wanted to call you and listen to your voice, yet i can't.
do you know that this feeling hurts alot?
i know, you were stress and need time to think about everything.
you said your feelings somehow faded, when i see that msg, i cried.
so i decided to give you time, patience and trust.
i was happy, to recieve your first text after everything, i jumped in joy.. :')
you know i love you more than G, you know i treat you importantly.
yes, you're important to me. very important.
after a week or so, remember that box i gave you?
and remember the prepaid card i bought for you?
yes, because i knew that your prepaid left only $5 bucks, and can't reply msges.
so i went to buy a prepaid for you. and the box, took me quite long to prepare too.
i hope you like our 1st month's gift.
i don't know what's happening.. i msg you, you don't reply.
maybe you're busy with your brothers and litao things, i don't know..
but i can understand, i really understand.
how badly i miss you, how badly i want to meet you..
putting up on a strong front, deep inside i'm bleeding :')
sigh, things would get better, right baby?
you know, i love you and no one else.
and remember our lifetime promises?
remember what you said, we'll ROM once i'm 16.
with parents consent of course.
and we'll have many babies and puppies, because you me loves dogs alot right :)
after that we'll go overseas, have a big house and life happily.
you go work, i stay at home and do house chores and takecare of our kids.
remember those promises we've made?
i'm really afraid, afraid that one day i'll lose you.
baby, i'll be waiting no matter what, i love you.

sigh, i wrote it and i teared, again.
i don't know what else to do anymore..
i miss him badly, so badly i want to meet him, yet..
but it's okays lah. i just want to mend his heart back now..
i'll try my best, i'll.

alrights, i'll go audi now, i think baby's in audi.
because i told him to meet me in audi just now.
will promise to post tomorrow or what.
and remember to tag me, but soon i'll change it to comments.
so try giving me comments now, thanks :)

18th, you mean so much more to me.
i love you and no one else.
i hope, that things really gets well soon.